Rainy Day.

Hey!

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while. Things have been pretty "full on" at home. Mum has been going down hill very quickly, and this ir sure to result in another trip to hospice.

Caring for her is a full time job, and can be quite tiring.Her feet and legs are still swelling and causing her so much pain. The other day she went to the oncologist (cancer doctor) and although it sounds absolutely ridiculous, and as much as i disagree with her, she says the swelling is in fact not swelling or fluid, but fat.

Now Mum definitely isn’t the most elite athlete, but before all of this was a size 10, and is now an 18. And I know I said her diet isn’t that fantastic, but surely, fat doesn't cause pain. Anyway, she decided to take Mum off chemo, and see if that did anything, which still hasn’t.

Also, Mum's meds have changed, well they're always changing and now they Ketamine, that usually comes in a lozenge, now has to be given to her in an injection form, due to the manufacturer's discontinuing the lozenges.

As hard as it is to sit here and blog to you, and try and tell you that everything is going to be okay, and just talk about the practical stuff, sometimes you have days where the practical stuff just doesn’t matter, and all you want to do is be at home just hanging out with her, and just being together, because who knows how much longer I’m going to be able to do that.
One of the hardest things is coming to school, it feels like such a waste of time, when I could be at home with Mum, just chilling or helping her out.

But, you gotta do what you gotta do.

Bye for now :)