Hey Bloggers,
The weekend that has just passed has been really hard. The decision was made to stop chemotherapy, and just manage Mum's pain.
The chemo that Mum was on, is just too harsh and is doing damage to her body, and just doesn't seem worth it. Unfortunately, there is nothing else we can do, and she has had as much radiotherapy as her body can handle. If we were to do anymore it would start to damage her spinal chord, the thing that sends messages from your brain to your limbs and other organs.
So, at the moment, Mum is pretty down and feeling like she has no choice but to give up. And that is how the rest of the family are feeling too. I guess we just have to sit there and watch it spread, and try our best to keep her out of pain.
I'm going to tell you this story about our Aunty Avis, and Aunty Lahni. Lahni is 40 and has four kids. She was diagnosed with breast cancer and was given a year to live. Aunty Avis is Lahni's mum, so while Lahni was sick, she prayed and prayed that she would get the cancer, and Lahni's would go away. So Lahni went for a check-up and the doctors were amazed, there was not one sign of cancer.
Meanwhile Aunty Avis wasn’t feeling too well, and went to the doctors; tests confirmed that she was completely riddled with cancer. In the end it spread to her brain, she became really loopy. And after 4 months, she passed away, an absolutely devastating event for our family.
Believe it or not, wishing for someone’s pain to go away doesn’t always make the situation better, we got to see Lahni live on, but we can only now remember Aunty Avis.
But one thing I can promise is now matter how bad things got in the end, I only remember all the good things about Aunty Avis, and somehow I hope that when something happens to my Mum, I’ll be able to pull through and remember only the good things too.
Sorry! Bit depressing today, but that’s what's going on!
Chels.
Missed you in class today Chels, and was wondering how you were going. Sounds like it's been a tough few days. Hope you're holding up ok.
ReplyDeleteYou write beautifully and I love the way you always have something positive to share even when your circumstances are anything but positive.
I hope that sharing your days on this blog helps you to process everything that's going on... it's certainly good for all of us to get some insight into a world many of us haven't personally experienced - Thank you :)
Will keep praying for you all.
Thanks Miss Haydock. I just think my mum is so amazing, and the way she just keeps going is really inspiring. I just wanted to share it with people.
ReplyDeleteI guess my life has to get worse before it gets better. :(
I'll be okay though.
This story you told is so sad it really gets to me :( it sounds so similar to what happened to my cousins grandmother, she had breast cancer and she went brain damaged and starting talking crazy hours before she passed away and it was so terrible to watch my cousin come home to my house everyday and cry, especially because she was only 10 years old at the time :(. I do hope to hear your mother does get better :)
ReplyDeleteAwww, i'm sorry. I hope your cousin is recovering.
ReplyDeleteDeath is a very hard thing to get used to, and at 10, it makes it extrememley hard.
Hope everything goes okay, and thanks. :)